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Hey guys, long time no see; first of all I hope everything's been going good/alright for everyone recently and I'm real sorry for going inactive here again for the past few months. Things have definitely been a bit crazy recently as you all probably know and I've been busy with online school and trying to get myself to work on stuff, but luckily, school finally came to a close for me yesterday.
So ye, I just wanted to make this journal to show that I'm not dead and now that school isn't asking of stuff out of me all the time I can finally shift more of my focus towards working on animations and posters again! 
(as well as models and hopefully learning/doing digital art; I'll definitely try to post drawings often for both FNAF and other stuff I enjoy)
I really appreciate all the support I've gotten on here so far this year; it really means a lot that I now have 400+ watchers and I really appreciate all the favorites and comments I've been getting as well; thank you guys all so much!! 
I pinky promise I'll be much more active this summer and I plan to make this my most productive summer break yet; so expect a lot from me hopefully! I'm already in the process of uploading 2 posters that I already put on Twitter earlier today; they should both be out within the next hour as of me posting this. (one's a springlock model showcase again.. this is the last time I swear lol)
All in all, again I hope everyone's doing well & healthy and I hope you all have a great summer! Hopefully it ends up being a lot more positive and eventful than the whole quarantine situation and I'm going to try my best to make this my most active summer yet. I really want to make this one different from the previous ones and try out some new stuff, mainly with drawing stuff but hopefully with some other mediums as well. But ye, overall thanks very much for reading and stay tuned for nEw stuff coming real soon! 
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A Message for the start of 2020.
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[This is a copy and past from my Youtube Community tab, as I really don't want to go back through this whole thing and make it make more sense for this platform, so I apologize in advance. Because of that, of course, this post refers to not only my status here on Deviantart, but my future on Youtube as well.]
Hey everyone, this is going to be a long post, but if you could read it I would deeply appreciate it.
First of all, I wanted to properly say happy 2020 to you all, last year was a nice year overall, however, there were a lot of things that I could of done better and in general it wasn't the best year I could of had, sure it was a really fun year, but in terms of my status here on my channel and other social media, it wasn't that good.
In 2018, a lot of great things happened to me, both in real life and here on the channel. That year was the first year where I actually felt valued in the community, mainly thanks to Hunter and XboxGamerK, I was able to be seen by a much larger audience and I got to meet a bunch of great people in the community that I had looked up to for quite some time. It was also my most active year when it came to uploads, which was of course mainly due to my higher motivation to animate stuff at the time. Looking back at my uploads from 2018, I'm pretty sure I had about 20 uploads, which isn't the best, but for how slow I generally work, that was a pretty good amount. Last year however, I only had 7, which is about only 1/3 of the uploads I did in 2018. This is not good at all. I'm just going to call myself out for everything I did wrong last year, because I know most people who I've done these things to are nice enough not to say anything about it, but no, I deserve this. (and for the record, I'm not asking for sympathy out of the following paragraph, I'm just addressing what I did wrong in a somewhat dramatic matter) I don't know why I became so lazy last year, or why most my motivation to do stuff just disappeared, but it really put a damper on the growth of my channel and the relations I had with most people in the community. I made a lot of mistakes last year, both due to my ignorance and thinking processes, but also due to my stubbornness as a person. I was really anti-social last year, as in I didn't reply to people's DM's much, I wouldn't say much on others' livestreams or comment on others' animations much, and I even ended a livestream early all because I few others I didn't expect to talk to joined a Discord call. I also let down a few people too, one person I promised a model back in July never ended up getting the model, and I'm trying to fix that now by working on it as much as I can to get it out to them. Another person was promised a model and it took me 2 months longer than what it was supposed to for me to get it done, mainly due to my procrastination. I also was probably the main reason TheHottest Dog's newest collab was unfinished too, I had the part for about a WHOLE YEAR and I still didn't manage to finish it, even though I was asked about it atleast once a week and I just ended up basically lying every single time I was asked about progress, even though a part of me actually thought I would meet those deadlines I told him I would meet. I also put a bunch of fake expectations and deadlines out to you guys too with this whole community tab thing. There were atleast like 20 times where I said an animation would come out within a few days of the post, yet they never ended up being finished, and sometimes I didn't even end up working on it either. I was seriously lost. I assumed making announcements would motivate me to actually make those ideas a reality, but in actuality I just hyped people up for nothing multiple times. And I bet after a while many people who saw those posts didn't even expect to see what I had promised in them, due to all the previous times I didn't come through with what I said. Basically, last year I was a major joke for this community, I don't blame any of those who unsubbed or just lost hope in me all together, because they had the perfect reason to. I'm really sorry for all the things I did last year that may of made you guys upset or those I mentioned, and even though some people I mentioned weren't specifically mentioned, you probably know who you are. I really messed up last year, and I hope you guys can forgive me for that.
This year however, I really want to change how I do stuff, and yes, I know I've said this before, but I truly want to fix my mistakes from last year. For now on, I won't make any announcements about stuff until I have atleast 1/4 of the project already done. I'll also try to me a lot more social on Discord too, both in DM's and on others' servers too, let alone my own server. I really feel like my passion to animate is coming back, and I want this to be my year where I really get somewhere and can make stuff that I'm actually proud of. Most importantly, I feel like I still need to justify why I'm currently at 6K subscribers by actually making some full length animations on my channel. I've never made a full song animation longer than about 80 seconds, so this year can be the one that I actually do it, not just once, but multiple times. I also plan to be way more active on Deviantart with posters and model showcases, as well as getting into digital art too. This year will be a great year, not just for me, but for many others in this community too, (not because of me obviously lol) as there's going that new FNAF game coming out in the mall (atleast I think it's a mall idk lol) and I'm sure many people are going to produce even more amazing and inspiring content, and I hope that this can be the year where I can make stuff somewhat along those lines too.
Thank you guys for all the support I've had over the last about 4 years I've been here on Youtube for [and the 3 1/2 years on Deviantart], especially last year, as I know it was kind of hard to support someone who was really uncertain about what he was doing lmao, but yeah, you guys are an incredible community and I cannot express how grateful I am to have all of you guys out there that support me and other FNAF SFM animators, I really appreciate all you guys do. I'm sorry if this post was all over the place with the topics I covered, I didn't check back to see if I made any spelling or grammar mistakes so if it was difficult to read at times then I apologize for that lol. Even though the main paragraph was rather depressing, I'm not still really upset about that stuff, as I'm trying to leave it all behind in the previous year and I just really hope I can make a difference this year. Again, I hope you guys have a great 2020 and I'll try my best to be a lot more active here and on other social media as well. If you have read this entire thing, then I want to say thanks again, it really means a lot, and I'll hopefully be out with some new stuff really soon.
I'm sorry if this post was all over the place with the topics I covered, I didn't check back to see if I made any spelling or grammar mistakes so if it was difficult to read at times then I apologize for that lol. Even though the main paragraph was rather depressing, I'm not still really upset about that stuff, as I'm trying to leave it all behind in the previous year and I just really hope I can make a difference this year. Again, I hope you guys have a great 2020 and I'll try my best to be a lot more active here and on other social media as well. If you have read this entire thing, then I want to say thanks again, it really means a lot, and I'll hopefully be out with some new stuff really soon. Join the community to add your comment. Already a deviant? Log In
Hey guys, I apologize for my long absence and lack of uploading here on Deviantart despite what I had said earlier on about me being more active and stuff. I've been making too many promises like these that I end up not going through with and I want to change my ways and be much more active this year starting today. I'll be uploading a poster in about an hour or so and I'll start doing traditional drawings on a regular basis too, I plan to draw some FNAF related things and draw some characters from other games too, especially characters from the Spyro Reignited Trilogy, since I got into those games soon after publishing my previous poster and I really want to draw some stuff related to it since I really enjoy playing those games and I think the characters and pretty neat and ePiC as well, so ye, stay tuned for some drawings related to that and pOssibly some SFM renders of Spyro himself since there's a pretty decent model of him on the workshop that I want to try out so ye. But yeah, again, I'm sorry I was dead yet again for so long, my motivation to animate and draw for the past few months has been pretty low and I've been very busy with school and hockey, but my motivation is coming back now, especially since I have half days in school tomorrow and Friday due to exams and stuff. Thanks for all the support on YouTube and here and for still being here despite my inactivity, hopefully I can make this my most successful year yet and I'll try to be the most active as well, stay tuned for the poster and have a great day. stAy epic. 
stAy epic.
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Why I've been kinda inactive recently.
4 min read
Hey guys, I just wanted to make an apology for the lack of uploads recently and the amount of broken promises I've committed recently, I've probably caused a lot of false hype and unnecessary waiting from you guys and I want to make things right. Recently, I've had a huge loss of motivation and I've had a major difficulty getting collab parts done and other projects finished because of this, and now it's starting to come back to haunt me. First of all, I want to make a huge apology to 
and 
for not getting my parts done for your collabs done yet. I was assigned both of these parts a long time back and due to my ignorance and procrastination, they still haven't been finished yet, and I wanted to say sorry about that and the fact that I've been constantly saying they'd be finished "soon" when I never ended up finishing them. I'm going to go into full working mode and try to get both of my parts for you guys done as soon as I can, for real this time. The Plushtrap drawing won't take me long, heck, I could even get it done tonight if I just stay up a little later to finish it, so I think I'll attempt to do that first. (edit: actually, I have to do it tomorrow since I don't have access to my drawing tablet rn) And for your collab part Rosy, I'm going to try to get atleast four shots done a day on it until it is done. I also have a big collab part for TheHottest Dog that I need to get done as well, and I'll try to balance the amount of time I work on that one with the others, so hopefully I'll be able to get that done really soon as well.
Another thing I need to mention, I don't necessarily want to cancel that comic series I had in mind either, I just don't know when I'll be able to afford the time to start working on it as of right now, but I'll try to work on more character designs and get it started sometime in November perhaps, but this could change, there's still lots of things I need to learn about digital art before I start a full blown comic series, so it could take a bit longer.
All in all, thank you to everyone who has been patiently waiting for me to upload videos, posters, drawings, etc. I'm going to try to make things right, starting tonight, I really want to become a more productive person when it comes to creating content for you guys and I want to become someone who is more reliable too, again, I'm very sorry for all the times in the past few months where I've promised people things and I never went through with them, sometimes I need to be more careful when typing out certain release dates, animation ideas, etc. I'll also try to be more active on Discord as well starting next week, I'm really going to push myself to get my current lingering projects out of the way so I can work on other things that I'll be more motivated to work on.
Thanks again for those who have been patient and for reading this if you read the whole thing, hopefully I can truly change my work ethic and become more reliable within the next few months.
and for not getting my parts done for your collabs done yet. I was assigned both of these parts a long time back and due to my ignorance and procrastination, they still haven't been finished yet, and I wanted to say sorry about that and the fact that I've been constantly saying they'd be finished "soon" when I never ended up finishing them. I'm going to go into full working mode and try to get both of my parts for you guys done as soon as I can, for real this time. The Plushtrap drawing won't take me long, heck, I could even get it done tonight if I just stay up a little later to finish it, so I think I'll attempt to do that first. (edit: actually, I have to do it tomorrow since I don't have access to my drawing tablet rn) And for your collab part Rosy, I'm going to try to get atleast four shots done a day on it until it is done. I also have a big collab part for TheHottest Dog that I need to get done as well, and I'll try to balance the amount of time I work on that one with the others, so hopefully I'll be able to get that done really soon as well. Another thing I need to mention, I don't necessarily want to cancel that comic series I had in mind either, I just don't know when I'll be able to afford the time to start working on it as of right now, but I'll try to work on more character designs and get it started sometime in November perhaps, but this could change, there's still lots of things I need to learn about digital art before I start a full blown comic series, so it could take a bit longer.
All in all, thank you to everyone who has been patiently waiting for me to upload videos, posters, drawings, etc. I'm going to try to make things right, starting tonight, I really want to become a more productive person when it comes to creating content for you guys and I want to become someone who is more reliable too, again, I'm very sorry for all the times in the past few months where I've promised people things and I never went through with them, sometimes I need to be more careful when typing out certain release dates, animation ideas, etc. I'll also try to be more active on Discord as well starting next week, I'm really going to push myself to get my current lingering projects out of the way so I can work on other things that I'll be more motivated to work on.
Thanks again for those who have been patient and for reading this if you read the whole thing, hopefully I can truly change my work ethic and become more reliable within the next few months.
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Okie, so I got tagged by this boi: 
(I'm not retagging ye btw), seeing all the tags that have been going around recently, I kinda knew I would end up getting tagged sometime soon, so I might as well get it over with nOw.
Rules:
You have to post ALL the rules.
Answer 12 questions you have been asked and then create 12 questions for people you tagged.
Choose 12 people.
Actually tag these people.
Can't say you don't do tags.
Tag backs are allowed
His Questions:
1. how ya doing
Pretty good, I'm on vacation for the millionth time so I'm having a fUn time rn.
2. what 3D program do you use
SFM and sometimes Blender (for modeling practice)
3. whats your favorite fnaf game
Tied between FNAF 3 and UCN
4. whats your favorite poster you have made
Probably my newest one:![[SFM/FNAF] FNAF 4's 3rd Anniversary thingy by MrClay1983](https://images-wixmp-ed30a86b8c4ca887773594c2.wixmp.com/f/6714136f-ade6-4382-8d38-d9dacf5361c8/dci3z9b-038dfbba-cffc-454e-aa58-a662d97a2869.jpg/v1/fit/w_150,h_150,q_70,strp/_sfm_fnaf__fnaf_4_s_3rd_anniversary_thingy_by_mrclay1983_dci3z9b-150.jpg?token=eyJ0eXAiOiJKV1QiLCJhbGciOiJIUzI1NiJ9.eyJzdWIiOiJ1cm46YXBwOjdlMGQxODg5ODIyNjQzNzNhNWYwZDQxNWVhMGQyNmUwIiwiaXNzIjoidXJuOmFwcDo3ZTBkMTg4OTgyMjY0MzczYTVmMGQ0MTVlYTBkMjZlMCIsIm9iaiI6W1t7ImhlaWdodCI6Ijw9NTYyNSIsInBhdGgiOiJcL2ZcLzY3MTQxMzZmLWFkZTYtNDM4Mi04ZDM4LWQ5ZGFjZjUzNjFjOFwvZGNpM3o5Yi0wMzhkZmJiYS1jZmZjLTQ1NGUtYWE1OC1hNjYyZDk3YTI4NjkuanBnIiwid2lkdGgiOiI8PTEwMDAwIn1dXSwiYXVkIjpbInVybjpzZXJ2aWNlOmltYWdlLm9wZXJhdGlvbnMiXX0.ejJG1AHdQKm-yUgdw9Kwhszcu3bXUVT_mdanGhqiKmQ)
, it was fun to make it and test out some new poses. I have an older one that I also like, and I might reconsider remaking it eventually:
![[SFM/FNaF/Poster] A Little Problem by MrClay1983](https://images-wixmp-ed30a86b8c4ca887773594c2.wixmp.com/f/6714136f-ade6-4382-8d38-d9dacf5361c8/da8pr73-ebb0c5f6-1f2c-4609-ac14-e25e6f50ff81.jpg/v1/fit/w_150,h_150,q_70,strp/_sfm_fnaf_poster__a_little_problem_by_mrclay1983_da8pr73-150.jpg?token=eyJ0eXAiOiJKV1QiLCJhbGciOiJIUzI1NiJ9.eyJzdWIiOiJ1cm46YXBwOjdlMGQxODg5ODIyNjQzNzNhNWYwZDQxNWVhMGQyNmUwIiwiaXNzIjoidXJuOmFwcDo3ZTBkMTg4OTgyMjY0MzczYTVmMGQ0MTVlYTBkMjZlMCIsIm9iaiI6W1t7ImhlaWdodCI6Ijw9MTEyNSIsInBhdGgiOiJcL2ZcLzY3MTQxMzZmLWFkZTYtNDM4Mi04ZDM4LWQ5ZGFjZjUzNjFjOFwvZGE4cHI3My1lYmIwYzVmNi0xZjJjLTQ2MDktYWMxNC1lMjVlNmY1MGZmODEuanBnIiwid2lkdGgiOiI8PTIwMDAifV1dLCJhdWQiOlsidXJuOnNlcnZpY2U6aW1hZ2Uub3BlcmF0aW9ucyJdfQ.qBfMRjHTSRX-DhjanQqcNdU2lNNI6jH_orBZrjxcwWs)
5. whats your favorite ice cream flavor
Tied between Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough and Mint Chocolate Chip
6. whos your favorite fnaf animatronic
Once again, I have more than one answer XD Tied between FNAF 1 Foxy, Springtrap, and Little jOe.
7. whos your best friend
I have a few, but if I had to name one who I've known irl, it's this boi:
(I'm not tagging ye either)
8. what other games do you like besides fnaf
bUndy&teHiNkmAchine, cUphEad, bAldi's bAsics (yes I actually like that game lol), Team Fortress 2 (even though I haven't played it in ages), Train Simulator (Railworks), the Super Mario series, Geometry Dash (yes ik it's extremely old but I enjoy playing it to this day), and a few other random games I haven't played in quite a long time.
9. whats your favorite fnaf fan game
TJOC: Story Mode, TJOC: Reborn, the FNAC games, and Fredbear and Friends: Left to Rot
10. whos your favorite youtuber
I have a few: Dawko, Markiplier, The Living Tombstone, Joey's World Tour (I watch some of his videos, and when I do it's ironically, but they can be hilarious (and the YTPs make me laugh until I can barely breath)), Octavio, Xboxgamerk, Enforma, Myszka11o (she hasn't made an video in a while but I still love her animations), Frecky, Rye-Rye99 (Even though his content can be a bit cringey, I find his Gmod videos amusing and funny at times, and he's a good animator), LunaticPlushtrap, BonBun Films, ThePixel, APAngryPiggy, Fer-Ge, RosySFM, the boi who tagged me, and a few other animators that I look up to. (I'm not tagging any of these people)
11. do you read books, if so what books do you read
I'm working on reading the books of the FNAF book trilogy, the Seekers series, and the Diary of a Wimpy Kid series (yEs I know it's meant for younger bois and it can be cringey, but I still enjoy reading those books.
12. do you draw
Yes, I'm starting a comic series soon which will require tons of drawing and I am starting digital art as well.
My questions:
1. Do you hate tags?
2. Am I a bad animator?
3. Does this question make no sense?
4. dO yOu lIke bEndy?
5. Are you going to ignore rules 3-6?
6. Are you siting in a camper typing on your laptop while you should be outside enjoying your vacation?
7. Do you play Roblox ironically and start fights with people in random servers for no reason?
8. Do you make too much previews and never go through with your promises to get full animations done?
9. Are you happy you hit 2.5k?
10. Is Little Joe the best FNAF character?
11. Do you like Earrape?
12. Are you going to make a special for 2.5k?
BONUS QUESTION YAY 13. Are you going to tag anyone?
Okie, that took forever XD Anyways, I shall tag:
Oh yea, all of those are my alt account, but since the last one is this one I might as well answer my questions.
Yes to questions 1 - 12
And nO to the bonus question. : )
(I don't respect tag rules that much lol)
(I'm not retagging ye btw), seeing all the tags that have been going around recently, I kinda knew I would end up getting tagged sometime soon, so I might as well get it over with nOw.Rules:
You have to post ALL the rules.
Answer 12 questions you have been asked and then create 12 questions for people you tagged.
Choose 12 people.
Actually tag these people.
Can't say you don't do tags.
Tag backs are allowed
His Questions:
1. how ya doing
Pretty good, I'm on vacation for the millionth time so I'm having a fUn time rn.
2. what 3D program do you use
SFM and sometimes Blender (for modeling practice)
3. whats your favorite fnaf game
Tied between FNAF 3 and UCN
4. whats your favorite poster you have made
Probably my newest one:
, it was fun to make it and test out some new poses. I have an older one that I also like, and I might reconsider remaking it eventually:
5. whats your favorite ice cream flavor
Tied between Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough and Mint Chocolate Chip
6. whos your favorite fnaf animatronic
Once again, I have more than one answer XD Tied between FNAF 1 Foxy, Springtrap, and Little jOe.
7. whos your best friend
I have a few, but if I had to name one who I've known irl, it's this boi:
(I'm not tagging ye either)8. what other games do you like besides fnaf
bUndy&teHiNkmAchine, cUphEad, bAldi's bAsics (yes I actually like that game lol), Team Fortress 2 (even though I haven't played it in ages), Train Simulator (Railworks), the Super Mario series, Geometry Dash (yes ik it's extremely old but I enjoy playing it to this day), and a few other random games I haven't played in quite a long time.
9. whats your favorite fnaf fan game
TJOC: Story Mode, TJOC: Reborn, the FNAC games, and Fredbear and Friends: Left to Rot
10. whos your favorite youtuber
I have a few: Dawko, Markiplier, The Living Tombstone, Joey's World Tour (I watch some of his videos, and when I do it's ironically, but they can be hilarious (and the YTPs make me laugh until I can barely breath)), Octavio, Xboxgamerk, Enforma, Myszka11o (she hasn't made an video in a while but I still love her animations), Frecky, Rye-Rye99 (Even though his content can be a bit cringey, I find his Gmod videos amusing and funny at times, and he's a good animator), LunaticPlushtrap, BonBun Films, ThePixel, APAngryPiggy, Fer-Ge, RosySFM, the boi who tagged me, and a few other animators that I look up to. (I'm not tagging any of these people)
11. do you read books, if so what books do you read
I'm working on reading the books of the FNAF book trilogy, the Seekers series, and the Diary of a Wimpy Kid series (yEs I know it's meant for younger bois and it can be cringey, but I still enjoy reading those books.
12. do you draw
Yes, I'm starting a comic series soon which will require tons of drawing and I am starting digital art as well.
My questions:
1. Do you hate tags?
2. Am I a bad animator?
3. Does this question make no sense?
4. dO yOu lIke bEndy?
5. Are you going to ignore rules 3-6?
6. Are you siting in a camper typing on your laptop while you should be outside enjoying your vacation?
7. Do you play Roblox ironically and start fights with people in random servers for no reason?
8. Do you make too much previews and never go through with your promises to get full animations done?
9. Are you happy you hit 2.5k?
10. Is Little Joe the best FNAF character?
11. Do you like Earrape?
12. Are you going to make a special for 2.5k?
BONUS QUESTION YAY 13. Are you going to tag anyone?
Okie, that took forever XD Anyways, I shall tag:
Oh yea, all of those are my alt account, but since the last one is this one I might as well answer my questions.
Yes to questions 1 - 12
And nO to the bonus question. : )
(I don't respect tag rules that much lol)
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